Sunday, August 28, 2011

I Didn't Sign Up for THIS!

How many times do we end up with projects, positions, titles, and jobs that we did not sign up for??? Or how many times do we sign up for things and end up so disappointed ....I think we learn more from and grow from the non volunteered situations. I sit here amazed that I am at the journey I am on....I was talking to my apprentice and I loved how she described her beginning her midwifery training...and I quote, "I am just the babysitter; I didn't sign up for this"... I LOVE her to pieces and all I could do was laugh...WHO signs up for long sleepless nights, hormonal shifts, being thrown up on and waiting for the call at any given moment where you drop EVERYTHING to sit and wait or miss what you waited 9 months to help with.??? I Love what I do and thankful for this "calling" , but I can assure you, I didn't sign up for this!! :)

Saturday, August 27, 2011

Out OF the west Texas town of El Paso

I can't believe that it has been almost a year since I last blogged... I really wanted to blog more, but life ran away from me. I have since lost over 50 pounds , supervised at least 50 births and learned huge life lessons. I think I won't give up on this and continue to try to find the time to blog. As far as midwifery is concerned, I have gained so much knowledge as to who I am and how I view birth. Due to the craziness of losing the kids and other life changes, I find myself back in good 'ol Arkansas. Arkansas - a state where Doctors are smart and midwives are stupid, hospital births are the only safe way to birth, VBACS Twins and Breeches are illegal, and there are more unlicensed midwives than licensed. It's not that I am in the backwoods more than there is too much backwards ways of thinking in the birth realm....sigh. I will probably go back and forth and blog births from El Paso and experiences there as I continue to blog here. I miss El Paso...well I think I miss the culture...I have only been here for a few weeks but it feels like EP was months ago. I have new and exciting changes to look forward to. God has a large sense of humor with me ... I know that this is where I need to be. Birth is different and the same no matter what, so I look forward to what more I have to learn . I hope I can make it here.